Personal Lamentations
We'll be going for a "holiday" soon. To me, it's not really a holiday. It'll be for a month. As I was thinking about it in the shower, I was just thinking that I wasn't even asked if I'd like to go or not. If I'm not wrong, my sister was the one behind this "holiday". It's all just unfair. All my hard-earned savings will be all gone, just like that, because of this "holiday", which I don't really want to go. Do my parents know what my plans are with my savings? No, they don't. They didn't even bother to ask, I don't think they know that I've got my plans with my own money. They just want me to spend it by going to a "holiday" with them. I've actually provided some resistance about going, but dad (yeah, it's my dad again who has lots of negative opinions) said I wouldn't be filial if I don't want to go with them! How absurd! But anyway, I just hope that if I do go, God will make it easier for me. I just hope that it'll be a period for me to state my independence and be reconciled with them on this trip. I hope I'll be able to earn the money back as I need it for my independence and subsequent marriage with this really special girl.
There have been many many, lots of other unhappy things I've experienced at home. I really wish I could move out. A couple of things just kept repeating at the back of my mind. It's sad.
I'm really meant to study. I've got a couple of exams next week. If things get unbearable, I'll keep posting.

